I'm back for real this time <3

07/14/2023 at 02:07 PM PT

written by: ignpoppyseed

     Whoopsie daisy, its been like a month. I haven't necessarily been busy, I've just had a lot of things to do. I know that sounds like the definition, but I promise it's different. In all honesty, I should have had more than enough time to make posts, but just the fact that I had things to do I think confused my brain a little bit. I have done quite a few cool projects recently, even though I've been mostly inactive here. I finally made myself a somewhat professional home page, which I've been putting off for a while. Even though I've had a few different ones, none of them have been mobile responsive or really showed off what I'm actually capable of. You can find the new home page here, and my previous home page that I took inspiration from here. The other thing I've been working on is a new discord bot. It's not all that revolutionary, but to challenge myself, I've limited myself to serverless architecture only, and I'm now allowed to use a discord library. I'm quite out of my comfort zone with this, but I've been having a ton of fun with it either way. If you're interested, you can invite callie here.

     In a completely out of character move for me, I'm actually a bit excited to go back to school in the fall. I don't know why it is, but this summer has just felt more fulfilling that ones in the past. There's still a month before school starts though, so I do have a bit more time to do stuff. I really wanted to get a job this summer, and I did for a bit, but then my employer realized they'd way over-hired and cut back, which resulted in my also getting fired. Part of me feels like, had that not happened, and I had never been hired in the first place, I would have had a job by now, but that's probably not true. Although there may be some truth to it considering during the 2 week hiring process and 2 more weeks I worked there, I stopped searching for jobs. Regardless, it's not their fault, and I do hope I'm able to find a job soon. I've applied to quite a few places at this point but it seems not too many places are keen on hiring people for their first job this close to the end of summer. It doesn't help that I don't really want to work in food service. It's not that big a deal, and I wouldn't mind that much, it just wouldnt be my first choice.

     Ideally, I'd like to get a job as a software engineer, but unfortunately most companies in tech don't want to hire minors that haven't graduated from high school. grrrr. In other news, I've been learning how to drive recently. I've been old enough to get a driver's permit for quite a while now, but I still haven't. Part of the issue for me is that I really see a point since my family doesn't own enough cars for me to take one all day, or even just long enough to drive to and from school. I'm still planning to get my permit before the end of the summer, but it's going to require at least a little bit of motivation that I just haven't built up yet.

     And now, for the same thing my last two post have at the very least mentioned, my continued thoughts on the discord username update. I know I have absolutely beaten this horse to death, but I am just so mad and confused. When I wrote my last couple posts, I had a sliver of hope that I could still somehow get the @poppy username, but I think that's gone now. As the rollout has continued, I have seen more and more people go from names like "i love stars!!! ✨✨#3213" to "stars2879354896", which just feels so sad. Discord used to be a platform I loved both for it's use as a chat application much better than Skype, but also for the amount of personalization it gave you, especially as they introduced custom statuses, about me's, banners, avatar decorations, and more. Discord always felt like you could actually be yourself, even more so because you could have basically any name you wanted, whenever you wanted it. Now, it just feels more corperate than ever. I know the other customization still exists, but somehow the "any username you want" tied everything together. Now that we don't have it, all the other customization feels less personal. It's a very hard and weird thing to describe, but I do promise the things I'm saying have meaning.

     Anyway, thank you all for reading, I know I said I'd post more in the last post, but I promise I'm back now and can talk about other things.

Thank you all for reading! ~poppy